Expectations VS Reality

My Bucket List- 2014

I started this blog just over a year ago now, after being inspired by so many other amazing beautiful bloggers and YouTubers. At first i was unsure of what i wanted to blog about, i thought beauty and fashion could be something i would manage as i had learnt a lot from other blogs. 

But if I'm honest with myself thats not what i want to read or watch anymore. Its not what interests me and i don't feel inspired to put out that kind of post. 

In my first post i spoke about how i was afraid to grow up and that i felt being an adult was forced on us a little to quickly, in another i spoke about my struggle with anxiety that had really knocked me down at the beginning of 2012. But since those posts a whole year as passed and i can see such a change in myself. Im not the girl i was a year ago, I'm now ready to be an adult and make something of myself.

By watching other YouTubers i have been very encouraged to live the life i want, and to make and create things that I'm proud of. I want to be able to look back at the start of 2015, read this post and say 'YES, I managed to create something I'm proud of and I'm glad i did it!' 

I wrote a bucket list for 2013 on my blog and i don't think i managed to do half the things on it. So this years one is going to be shorter:

To Write, Direct and Act in my own short film.

As someone studying acting and performance, this is something i am very keen to do. Not long ago me and my friends from college started a YouTube channel called LifeOfADramaStudent (my last post is about it) and it is a personal goal of mine to make a short film and upload it to there. I do all the filming and editing at the moment for LifeOfADramaStudent and i really really enjoy doing it. A short film is a definite for this year!

To be more healthy and fit.

I know this is a common one for a lot of people every new year and I'm not sure how well i will be able to keep up with this one. It is something i would really like to try do though. I feel like i really need to be the person i want to be, on the inside and out. Which means i need to motivate myself for a healthy style of living. I have a very sweet tooth which recently i have been giving in to and it needs to stop. 

Just to make it clear, its not my figure i want to change (although i wouldn't mind being a bit toned in places) its my unhealthy insides and risk of getting high blood pressure when I'm older. 

To follow my instinct's and do what I want, NOT what other people want.

Lately I've realised just how rubbish people can be. People can stab you in the back, or just be plain mean because they think something that your doing is odd or a little embarrassing. But they can just go. Nope. Im so done with them. If i want to do something with my life and try to make some tiny impression on the face of the earth, then why can't i? If i want to make YouTube videos with my friends, write on my blog and make a short film, why can't i?  Its not so abnormal now a days. 

Thanks for reading.

I hope this inspired you to a make your own bucket list of things to do for 2014. 

Love Cat

LifeOfADramaStudent

It Happened!

Well what can i say, we finally did it.

As you may have seen in my last blog post, i said that me and my friends were wanting to create a YouTube Channel..

LifeOfADramaStudent/ L.O.A.D.S consists of me and Eight other drama students.

The aim of the channel is to create things that display our talent, entertain and make others happy. We all have very different personality and interests so there is defiantly something for everyone!

We aim to have at least one new video up a week, if not more, where some, or all of us will do challenges, Tags, sketches etc.

(There will most likely be beauty, fashion and music covers later on)

It would mean the world to me and my friends if you would LIKE, COMMENT AND SUBSCRIBE!

Here is the link for the trailer to our first video and to the start of LifeOfADramaStudent

Enjoy!

http://youtu.be/Najyw1GtwV4

Cat x

YouTube? Yah or Nah

Hey Girls,

for some time now, really as long as I've had this blog, I've wanted to have a YouTube channel.

I've tried filming before, and its worked out well enough, but i just don't have the confidence to start and upload a video. My main issue is the topic and theme of the channel. As much as i love talking about beauty and fashion, i don't know if its something i'd want to film. 

Since starting college me and several other of my friends have discussed the idea of starting a channel together, but finding time where we are all free for a first video is proving very difficult. Since we are all studying acting we thought we would do something that follows along those line. We all have very different personalities and bring something different to the table. And obviously acting isn't are only passions. 

The other day a guy i work with said that he could really picture me being a vlogger, just as long as the videos weren't too long. But i wanted to know the opinion of someone who I'm sure, read and watches a lot of bloggers and vloggers. I know myself that i like to watch the YouTubers lives rather than just their beauty or fashion videos and walk about vlogs are really what i enjoy watching on YouTube the most.

I think its important for me (wanting to some day be an actress) to put myself out their into the world and try have the confidence to let people into part of my life. 

In the blogging world everyone is so sweet and so I'm hoping some of you lovely girls would be able to tell me what you would want to see or watch from me. 

I know its such a common thing now a days for people to want to be YouTube stars, but what can i say, i really want to be able to create something for myself that i can be proud of, like I'm proud of this blog!

I really would love to know your honest opinions. So PLEASEE let me know!

Also would you watch a channel that was made by a group of boys and girls if it was all different types of videos? 

Thanks!!

 Cat 

Cosy Coat: Winter OOTD

Hey Girls,

well winter is finally upon us and i couldn't be more excited. I love this time of year. First of all my birthday is in November (Yes I'm 18 now) and THEN its Christmas! I don't even mind the colder weather, its just an excuse to do a little bit more shopping. New cosy coats and boots, xmas jumpers and fluffy pj bottoms? Yes please!

Coat- Mango

Leggings- Black Milk

Top- Topshop

Boots- Dune

Necklace- Topshop

Bag- Accessorize 

 Hope you like my winter outfit! Enjoy Christmas everyone! Leave me a comment and tell me what you think of my outfit! 

Cat

My A/W face

Hey Girls, 

been changing up my make up recently as its starting to get a little bit colder now, I've been experimenting with the eyes mostly. Here are two looks I've been wearing lately!

The First look consists of a normal base, Mac 'Russian Red' Lips, a gold simmer all over the lid with black gel liner. This is a great festive look and its super easy to achieve!

Look number two is a little more time consuming, this is really just because the eyes need a bit more attention. As you can see this look has no eyeliner to it, and with out it, it completely changes the way you look. I almost always wear eyeliner, but i actually really like this look! Again, just my normal base is used, on the lips any nice berry colour will work (this one is Rimmel's 107 from the Kate Moss collection).

For the eyes i use a natural matte shade all over the lid, then a matte light brown through the crease. Under the eye however is where its happening!

I use a small amount of gold eyeshadow along the lash line, blended in with some more of the matte brown shade to calm it down a little, really you can go for any colour combo you fancy! You can go a heavy as you want for this look, the darker the better! I like to have mine very subtle when you have a strong lip on during the day but at night all you need to do is make the eyes a little darker and your ready for a night out! I got this look inspiration for 'Beauty Crush' off of YouTube if you wanna see a tutorial of something similar!

Hope you like these looks!

 Let me know what you think in the comments!

Cat

Tarot Cards

Hey Girls. 

Today I wanted to show you something I discovered a wee while ago. And that thing is Tarot cards.

If you are unfamiliar with tarot, then think of them as what fortune tellers use to 'predict' your future. Although that's not really what they are used for at all! Let me explain with an example.

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So there is this guy called Bob (love the name Bob) and he is in a relationship with Jane. They have been together for several years and are very happy together. Bob would like to marry Jane but doesn't know if its a good idea, Bob is worried that by getting married their relationship might change for the worse and ruin things and he doesn't want that! This is where he would consult the Tarot!

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Tarot cards are used to help you decide what you really want. Certain cards will provoke different questions that can be applied to all situation, and by doing this you will achieve your true subconscious opinion and desire. 

All the Tarot cards do is help you focus your mind on what you really want. Simple!

But saying this I must confess I am no expert on reading the cards. And although i have tried to use them, i have never really had a proper question to ask them. I was first interested in purchasing Tarot cards after reading 'The Mortal Instruments' earlier this year. You can purchase them (if any of you are interested) in any good Waterstones store, and there you should be able to find all sorts of different designs and themes.

Here are a few examples of my pack of 78 cards- The Wild Wood Tarot!

What drew me to this certain pack was the weird but wonderful illustrations. I find the cards simply beautiful. I love the ancient woods, filled with myths and mystery. Each card is as stunning as the next and it is truly exciting to turn over the tarot to see your chosen cards.

Honestly i could ramble on about this for ages, but that would just be way boring. All I would suggest (if this has actually interested you in the slightest) is to go buy your own pack of cards and try it out for yourself, or even read one of your friends Tarot and see for yourself what you can discover.

If any of you have ever tried Tarot then please let me know what you think of it, or if this has inspired any of you (i hope it has) to go try it out them please tell me, i would love to know!

Thanks for reading 

Cat